Post by smurfgasm on Aug 30, 2011 23:41:10 GMT -6
I don't know if this message will be left here for long because I'm not sure of the attitudes towards me now that I've left the guild, but I feel that I owe it to all of you to let you know why I left.
Whether or not you like me, I've done what I could to help Sanctum grow and prosper--not without fault because I am human (I know, scary though)--and I've come to care a lot about many of the members of the guild.
That being said, I'll admit that I've become more and more frustrated and felt more and more alienated in the guild as time has gone by, especially in the last few months. I've spent months hitting my head against walls trying to figure out what I could do to make the experience more fun and help those who wanted to see raid content see it. I've not always been super-sweet about it (to put it lightly) but I've never intentionally attempted to make anyone feel attacked or alienated.
As you've probably realized, I've been trying to set up raid invites for a while now, and a large part of this has been because there hasn't been anyone else to do it--despite me asking and searching for people to take over raid leading and to get a chance to see where the guild would go with other leadership.
Anywho, I don't think we care to hear me blabber about raiding. I know it's a touchy subject and I'm not trying to step on toes.
I left Sanctum today because I felt that the removal of Santa--who has been one of my biggest helps THROUGHOUT this expansion in keeping raiding available to those who want it--was unfair and immaturely handled. Say whatever you want about my priorities, and take my defense of Santa however you will. Any person who has raided with us has recognized that we've had people who need to carry their weight in raids, we've had people who aren't happy with how things go. Calling those people bad isn't the most tactful way to go about it, but if someone's not carrying their weight in a raid, that's what it is. Even if it's a casual raid, it's still people trying to work together toward a common goal--and if you're holding back that goal you're just making the experience bad for the rest of the people involved.
To put it simply--I'm in many ways sad to go, but I also know it's time for me to do so. I can't be the raid-leader for the guild anymore as it is, and I've felt that that has been my reason for being around in guild for quite some time, especially on those days when I feel invisible unless I've done my "job" of setting up raids that week. I've got school and a job to worry about, not to mention a healthy relationship with someone who takes damned good care of me and a beautiful world outside to share with my friends. I've tried to remain a casual while raiding, but it's just not that easy.
Now, to leave all the not-so-nice stuff where it is. Here's my guild-goodbyes, but not for good because you'll still hear from me!
To those of you who've made this last year or so in Sanctum so much fun, thank you. Special thanks especially a handful of you listed below.
To Jenn (aka Bellaluz) for inviting me to the guild in the first place. I'd probably not even be playing anymore if not for that.
To Allison (aka Isalia) for making me love this guild, and for being a really damned good friend when things were shittastic in my life. Even when we've been down each other's throats I never can remember those shitty days.
To Darky (aka Ben) for being quirky and fun and for not kicking my ass from guild sooner.
To Shang for being a super-sugar daddy and reminding me that it's all about karma.
To Indi for being such an infectious ray of sunshine even on my worst days, and not being afraid to yell at me when I need it.
To Jessica (aka Kor) for being my wonder-twin and making me not be a lazy healer. And for just being generally awesome.
To All of you for being like another family full of dysfunction for the time I've been around.
It's been a good run, but I think it's time I be the "warlock sacrifice" and drop group. No hard feelings, I hope, but I've got my own principles about how things go, and,even if you think they might be misplaced, I'm going to stick to them. I hope no one takes my leaving as a snipe or an attack--because it's not. Feel free to /wave if you see me or /poke or whatever, I'll be around. /moon if you're feeling brave.
Until we pwn face together again,
Smurfy
Whether or not you like me, I've done what I could to help Sanctum grow and prosper--not without fault because I am human (I know, scary though)--and I've come to care a lot about many of the members of the guild.
That being said, I'll admit that I've become more and more frustrated and felt more and more alienated in the guild as time has gone by, especially in the last few months. I've spent months hitting my head against walls trying to figure out what I could do to make the experience more fun and help those who wanted to see raid content see it. I've not always been super-sweet about it (to put it lightly) but I've never intentionally attempted to make anyone feel attacked or alienated.
As you've probably realized, I've been trying to set up raid invites for a while now, and a large part of this has been because there hasn't been anyone else to do it--despite me asking and searching for people to take over raid leading and to get a chance to see where the guild would go with other leadership.
Anywho, I don't think we care to hear me blabber about raiding. I know it's a touchy subject and I'm not trying to step on toes.
I left Sanctum today because I felt that the removal of Santa--who has been one of my biggest helps THROUGHOUT this expansion in keeping raiding available to those who want it--was unfair and immaturely handled. Say whatever you want about my priorities, and take my defense of Santa however you will. Any person who has raided with us has recognized that we've had people who need to carry their weight in raids, we've had people who aren't happy with how things go. Calling those people bad isn't the most tactful way to go about it, but if someone's not carrying their weight in a raid, that's what it is. Even if it's a casual raid, it's still people trying to work together toward a common goal--and if you're holding back that goal you're just making the experience bad for the rest of the people involved.
To put it simply--I'm in many ways sad to go, but I also know it's time for me to do so. I can't be the raid-leader for the guild anymore as it is, and I've felt that that has been my reason for being around in guild for quite some time, especially on those days when I feel invisible unless I've done my "job" of setting up raids that week. I've got school and a job to worry about, not to mention a healthy relationship with someone who takes damned good care of me and a beautiful world outside to share with my friends. I've tried to remain a casual while raiding, but it's just not that easy.
Now, to leave all the not-so-nice stuff where it is. Here's my guild-goodbyes, but not for good because you'll still hear from me!
To those of you who've made this last year or so in Sanctum so much fun, thank you. Special thanks especially a handful of you listed below.
To Jenn (aka Bellaluz) for inviting me to the guild in the first place. I'd probably not even be playing anymore if not for that.
To Allison (aka Isalia) for making me love this guild, and for being a really damned good friend when things were shittastic in my life. Even when we've been down each other's throats I never can remember those shitty days.
To Darky (aka Ben) for being quirky and fun and for not kicking my ass from guild sooner.
To Shang for being a super-sugar daddy and reminding me that it's all about karma.
To Indi for being such an infectious ray of sunshine even on my worst days, and not being afraid to yell at me when I need it.
To Jessica (aka Kor) for being my wonder-twin and making me not be a lazy healer. And for just being generally awesome.
To All of you for being like another family full of dysfunction for the time I've been around.
It's been a good run, but I think it's time I be the "warlock sacrifice" and drop group. No hard feelings, I hope, but I've got my own principles about how things go, and,even if you think they might be misplaced, I'm going to stick to them. I hope no one takes my leaving as a snipe or an attack--because it's not. Feel free to /wave if you see me or /poke or whatever, I'll be around. /moon if you're feeling brave.
Until we pwn face together again,
Smurfy
